Do you ever get tired of living for Christ? Have you ever grown weary of trying to please God all the time? Are there days when you just want to throw in the towel? In some sense, any seasoned believer has had to honestly answer ‘yes’ to at least one of these questions. Yet, we continue pressing on, knowing that we are disciples of the One Who gave His life for us (Gal. 2:20).
I know it gets tough at times, especially when we are striving to do our best. Even when we give our due diligence, life does not always turn out the way we would like. In those moments, we must remind ourselves that it is not for this life that we live, but for that which is to come. No matter how bleak our circumstances become, we cannot afford to turn away from the One Who is always with us (Heb. 13:5). We have made an irrevocable commitment to follow Christ until the end, and we must live up to that commitment regardless of the struggles and strains of life. Why? We have been given hearts of discipleship.
Speaking of which, I came across an anonymous essay entitled ‘The Disciple’s Heart’ several years ago, and I held onto it for obvious reasons. I have included it below for your edification, encouragement, and as a model for the Christian mind. I pray that it will bless you as it blessed me.
The Disciple’s Heart
I want to be a follower of Christ. I want to be one of His disciples. I want to walk in the newness of life, just let me be a follower of Christ. What do I have to do? What do I have to say? How do I have to walk each and every day?
Tell me, what does it cost if I follow the cross? Just let me be a follower of Christ?
I am a member of the unashamed. I have Holy Spirit power. The die has been cast. I have stepped over the line. The decision has been made. I am a disciple of His. I won’t look back, let up, slow down, back away or be still.
My past is redeemed. My present makes sense. My future is secure. I am finished and done with low living, sight walking, small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams, tamed vision, mundane talking, cheap living and dwarfed goals.
I no longer need preeminence, prosperity, position, promotion, plaudits, or popularity. I don’t have to be right, first, tops, recognized, praised, regarded or rewarded. I now live in faith, lean on his presence, walk in his patience, live by prayer, labor with power. My face is set, my gait is fast, my goal is heaven, my road is narrow, my way is rough, my companions are few, my guide reliable.
My mission is clear. I cannot be bought, compromised, detoured, lured away, turned back, deluded or delayed. I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the presence of the adversary, negotiate at the table of the enemy, ponder at the pool of popularity or meander in the maze of mediocrity.
I won’t give up, shut up, or let up, until I have stayed up, stored up, prayed up, and preached up the cause of Christ. I am a disciple of Jesus. I must go till He comes, preach till all know and work till He stops me. And when He comes for His own, He will have no problem recognizing me. My banner will be clear.